"I was married to a narcissist for almost 15 years where I was slowly losing my life, my friends, myself. He gaslighted me incessantly that I literally lost my identity. On the outside, I looked happy. But in the inside, I was a mess, surrounded and enveloped in a black aura. I hardly smiled, let alone laughed. When I finally filed for divorce, it was another harrowing web of lies and mental torture. 3 years of endless visits with the police, lawyers, courts. He was determined to destroy me that years after it was finalized, I still jumped every time I saw his number calling my phone. My heart still raced thinking "what did I do now? How is going to jack me up this time?" It was awful. However I am strong. I fought back. I refused to let him rule my life, present and future. My life was a big black hole when we were married. No more."
Submitted by KAMELYTA